20180716 Important role of rest - written in English

 Living in the dark. Sometimes I felt this way. After graduation, I haven’t used my time freely. Since June 2017-when the defense of master’s degree, I have started to apply for doctorate degree programs abroad.‘If I want to get something, I have to give up a few joy.’ That’s what I thought. First few months, I did study until 4 am, every day after finished my work in the laboratory. TOEFL and GRE were the main things to study for going abroad. I didn’t know at that time, however, the harsh pushing sometimes makes people get deep depression. I’ve never tried that hard before. I gave up to watch a movie, which is my favorite hobby, even. This made me harder and harder. If this endeavor were worked and gone back to normal, It would be okay. However, from my chaotic time, I had to decide to give up applying abroad in the first year in January 2018. That winter was very harsh. Because I have to prepare next year, so I couldn’t stop the study. Even my work at the lab was going well, I cried every day when I came back to my house, more than 1 hour. I’ve lost in my life. The time gap was the thing I’ve never expected and it made me nervous and depressed.

 Now, after 6 months, I’m still working on the study, sometimes going to the laboratory, and preparing heavy amounts of documents for admission. However, I feel less depressed and stressed before, How? I started to get rest. Bringing rest to my life again was the most important thing I did. I started to go a movie theater. Even if I saw other’s victorious results in a social network, I stopped to compare me and them. I try to don’t forget this-I have my own tempo, and I will go my way in my way.

Due to lack of time, I thought it would be okay to reduce the resting time and do more study. I misunderstood the meaning of rest. Rest doesn't mean time spending between study and study, but it does mean refreshing everything from one concentration, including my emotional feeling. From this experience, I learned the important lesson for my eternal studying life.